sisters.

I can say, without an ounce of doubt, that I am no where near the person I was a year ago. Not physically, emotionally, spiritually, mentally.. I barely recognize her. 

I also know that without my sister, I would still be stuck searching for happiness in places it would never be found. She opened doors for me that I never would’ve opened myself… she helped me find me. Crazy to be lost within your physical body. I was a shell of myself when I started over and refilling myself with what I needed was the greatest gift given by her words and support.

So, to my sister…

You have given me more than you’ll ever know over the last few years. I look back at the wasted time and the regrets I use to have in regards to how things had turned out between us… I am grateful for all of it. Of course things could have been different with us but could it really have been? I truly believe that our lives came together at just the right time for both of us. I love that you share your life with me now. I would hate myself to think of the maybes and what ifs so I’m going to continue believing that everything happened for a reason.

-The original was written a few years ago. I have come to a greater place of appreciation for my sister in ways that I didn’t know was possible. I miss the shit out of her everyday. She lives about 8 hours from me and now that she’s manifesting businesses and ventures, she is a busy bee. I have the worst timing for calling while she’s at work, so tiny little sister of mine… this will be where I tell you the things sitting on my tongue waiting until we talk again.

Today, I love you.

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