• home.

    Life Past

    I’m not sure why its recently become important for me to find everywhere I’ve lived.  I’m drawn to the idea of each house. Maybe remembering anything from a place that could hold another nugget of my life.. I feel guilty when I don’t remember.  I once rode by…

  • sisters.

    Life Past

    I can say, without an ounce of doubt, that I am no where near the person I was a year ago. Not physically, emotionally, spiritually, mentally.. I barely recognize her.  I also know that without my sister, I would still be stuck searching for happiness in places it…

  • tragedy.

    Life Past

    Do not look for healing at the feet of those who broke you. Rupi Kaur When I thought about what my life held after leaving my marriage, although I knew it would be hard, I didn’t know just how hard.  Jennifer Weiner said, “Divorce isn’t such a tragedy….

  • reflection.

    Life Past

    Listening to Robyn Ottolini I originally sat down to discuss today’s events but the old journal entries were at my finger tips so I decided to share.  Rereading those journal entries, the desperation was astronomical.  I talked about looking back on those entries and having my hopeful reality…

  • dating after divorce.

    Life Past

    02/17/2022  I’m going to say this because it’s heavy on my mind tonight. Since leaving I’ve began to people watch and watch the wheels of the rumor mill turn and turn with no known destination. No guarantee of how far it will be misconstrued when it reaches the…

  • evolving.

    Life Past

    02/17/2022  I had an entire plan in my head of what I’d find this old blog for..  The uplifting things I’d write about for today..  Instead I searched aimlessly finding the initial blog from 2018. The sadness consumed me reading it. I began to feel myself back in…

  • resentment.

    Life Past

    10/13/2018 Weeks of thinking, “I wonder if blogging would be easier than writing…” How lazy, right? Well, I’ve /always been a writer.. I write when I’m happy, when I’m sad, when I’m frustrated, when I can’t find the thoughts I’m looking for. I simply need a place to…

  • one day.

    Life Past

    Expectations can be exhausting. Waiting for the replay. I’m unsure of the time span it takes to shake those feelings of doubt. Doubting the honesty is a huge hurdle. I pray that one day soon I find the courage to believe the things he says. To feel that…

  • lighter

    Life Past

    I feel like I just lost my soul. I don’t remember the last time I cried with purpose. A purpose that was powerful. A true cleansing. An amazing realization. I feel lighter. I’m certain more tears will be shed; but I’m also certain that I truly needed that….

  • obligation.

    Life Past

    Todays Words: Stay busy. Don’t cry. Stay busy, don’t cry! Dear Lord please give me the strength of forgiveness, the strength for understanding and the power to not settle for less than I deserve. Above all, give me strength. That’s all. Strength. I am weak.  The ‘what ifs’…